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christinottoYou'll stay right where u left your mark February 17 STOP ITmakes the user feel euphoric, energetic, talkative, and mentally alert, especially to the sensations of sight, sound, and touch. It can also temporarily decrease the need for food and sleep. Users often report feelings of restlessness, irritability, can trigger paranoia. Users also report being depressed when they are not using the drug.
leads to a state of increasing irritability, restlessness, and paranoia. This may result in a full-blown paranoid psychosis, in which the individual loses touch with reality and experiences auditory hallucinations.
January 10 You cut me openClosed off from love January 06 The forbidden fruitLike eating a forbidden fruit, I opened the mail that I was ment to never read again, I've been digging out the memories I was ment to never think of again, And I knew I was not supposed to but I had gone too far already, And there it is - you calling me brilliant, the best thing that ever happened to u, I hear your voice, I feel your breath, I see your face, I remeber every single thing u ever said to me, I realize that I probably turned into everything u ever wanted me to be, Unknowingly did I fix everything u ever mentioned with a word, The nails, the bleaching, the waist - those are just the little things I thought I did for myself and now I do realize I did it all because of you, And still thats not the point because it's just superficial nonsense, The scary part is - I am as brilliant as u always wanted me to be and as u tought I am, The future that we were always trying to build up has now found its base it could build up on, I am focused, I am on my way up, ready to make it for the both of us and now guess what: There is no both of us anymore. Ever since the mail, which I was supposed to never read again, has been written, Ive been the tough single woman, But in fact I've been taken all the time, in my mind, So here I am, a workaholic, making money, being all grown and mature, I never asked u for anything but your love and honesty, For that I gave u my all, even when u didnt even ask for it anymore, And now that I am everything u ever wanted me to be, I realize ur not here to be so proud on me, Not did I only lose a lover, I lost a friend, I broke my head about why, why we cant even be friends, why didnt we work like the previous ones worked, Until I realized it's because u cannot turn an elephant into a mouse either, It's because a diamond doesnt equal up to fake jewelery, I hate u because I cant get u out of my heart, sould and thoughts which is why I love u, I ate the forbidden fruit that got me poisoned, It's like a desease I will have to live with, Incompletely complete. July 03 Final Love LetterThis is my final love letter to you by Galadriel
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